It's so annyoing sometimes that I put so much thought into the things I do. I desire to do the will of God, to let Him lead that sometimes I make small decisions seem big. Sometimes I turn ordinary moments that don't have a right or wrong biblically into all or nothing answers.
I wrote a Christmas letter like I do every year...only this year I wasn't sure if I should. It actually was erased by computer shut down and I havn't decided if I should rewrite it or just forgo it altogether. If it was a sign to let it go.
I so enjoy reading those letters and I do enjoy writing them...but at times while I write it feels braggy and "look at me". It feels showy and prideful. I never read those letters sent to me that way. I enjoy them!
I get the same feelings sometimes when I write in this blogspace though. So I go a long while without writing. I desire to share Christ from the roof tops and what He is doing in our lives but in love, in a way that speaks humbly not showy. I never want someone to feel like their life isn't as good or that their life is better by reading my daily doings. It is a hard balance with humble and pride. To not tear ourselves or others down but to build us up in encourgament though not pride while sharing our God stories for His glory. I wonder if anyone else has this struggle?
So I wait...I pray He makes it clear to write or not write this years Christmas or New Years letter, or just send a photo or not do anything at all. I pray He makes me see it isn't an all or nothing or a right or wrong, just a nudge of His direction specifically for me, for this year. Oh how this can be applied to many many areas of life. In end that at the heart of what I do, I do joyfully for Him. Whether to do or abstain. This season and always.
Merry Christmas my friends. May your entire heart be filled with His Holy Spirit and His joy and His peace. #shinejesus